Secrets
OK. Work was crazy busy, but I am hopeful that the worst is over.
Sometimes, either by intuition (which I sadly don't have much of) or by divine intervention (which may be slightly more reliable! lol)I learn people's secrets (but never Al's)
I am learning that I really am clueless in intuition. Last week, I ran into someone who I knew from years ago and instantly I knew something about them that explained the way they acted about 10 years ago. We did not speak (other than maybe a greeting of hello) and I knew. And it wasn't a nice secret. It kind of spooked me out.
The other secret I remember learning this year in such an instant fashion was not a bad secret. It happened in the summer. I went in to someone's office and I literally could not stand. I had to hang on to an object to remain upright. The person I was talking to in the office wasn't looking at me while this was happening, so at least while I was being clobbered on the head with a secret, noone was noticing. Knowing this secret also explained this person's actions.
But for all that. For the people and their actions making more sense to me, I'm not quite sure what to do with the information, other than pray.
P.S. God doesn't tell me Al's secrets (He worries about this, so I do have to disclaim)
Don't mess with the sleep deprived woman
It would figure that BOTH of my jobs manage to go into high gear at the same time leaving me overworked and sleep deprived.
My boss warned me that there was something going on concerning me at work. He told me not to worry about it. I said I hadn't received any emails about it. But today I did. And with a background of being overworked and overtired, I was offended by it. But I replied as civilly as I could. But after thinking about it for a while, I don't think I'll be civil tomorrow. I'm going to sleep on it though.
Tonight, we had a prayer meeting. At one point, I really felt directed to pray for certain people and it was kind of a long prayer. And normally I'm a pretty concise pray-er. So my brain is all "You are praying too long" but I wasn't.
A new year
There is a new year with a new year number in January, but in September things are all new as well, if you have anything to do with education. James starts a new class and I start a new class.
These last few weeks I have been learning some hard lessons. Good, but hard. And I haven't felt like writing them down because words really don't seem adequate to express what I want to.
Today I prayed a lot for the Rustle board and for the year. And I felt that this year I need to focus on restoration.
And so this blog has been quiet for a bit, but now it is restored! lol. (though my work is ramping up, so I'm not guaranteeing how restored it will be!)
There is a person who years ago, I put a lot of work into trying to disciple and one day they just walked away from it. I chased and tried to restore, but it was not possible.
Then they just walk back into my life and I am hesitant. I hold back. Will they just walk out again? But what I sense is that I need to open up. As hard as that is for me because I don't open up all that much (well, except for here. ha ha. but this isn't real life is it?), and opening up to someone who has hurt me in the past doesn't seem to be what *I* would want to do, I think it will be good for me. Restoration. It feels like waterfalls.
