On the spot
To continue on my
party post. I was in the middle of a meeting and we were talking about the banquet details and my boss in front of everyone asks me if I'm going. I (still) don't know, which is what I told him.
I like the idea of taking a night off, but don't like dressing up and formalness. Especially formalness that involves salmon!
I'm doing up the banquet list now, so I'd better decide soon!
Myron is still wiped out from his boyz weekend where they stayed up late and played video games. I think he fell asleep tonight before James. He likes to think he can stay up late, but forgets he is not the spring chicken he once was.
Resolving spots
I saw the dr. this morning and I'll have to wear an 'event monitor' to check my heart more.
I asked her about the spots and she came up with the same idea as Dawna- migrane. So it must be a common symptom for that, but I didn't have a headache or anything after that. The dr. didn't seem too concerned about it. More concerned about my heart waking me up at night!
Rough
Last night was rough. I had been doing better with my sleeping and my heart but last night I had another attack. My heart just gets to racing and I get all cold and then I can't sleep. Hopefully, tonight will go better.
When weeding the dandelions, I ripped my hand up pretty bad. It's been 2 days and water still stings it.
Mothers day was never too big of a deal in our house. In fact, I didn't even send my mother a card this year. Some years I think of it, some I don't. I'll call her tomorrow though. She'll be happy enough with that.
I am going to make a mother's day card for someone though. Unfortunately, her name is eluding me right now. I suck. I am quite annoyed with myself for not knowing her name. But I am making her a card to show I care. Evidently, not enough to remember her name, but whatever.
Roots
I was digging dandelions yesterday after work (and I still have many more to do!) and thought about how pleased I am when I am able to pull them up with the root intact. And how, like with sin, thats the only was to stop it from growing again, and having to deal with it AGAIN in my life. But it's not always easy to tell when you've got sin by the root.
I also realized as long as I was attacking the dandelions, it was ok. As long as I keep fighting against sin in my life, even if I don't get it all, it's ok. (And I know I have God helping me on this)
As long as I don't give up and let the dandelions overrun the place, I'm in a good space.
Party?
Here's an argument I am currently having in my head:
The conference I am working for offered me a free banquet ticket for their last night.
We have 3 choices of meal - vegetarian, chicken or salmon. The banquet is at Fort Henry and includes a tour of the Fort and fireworks. I am trying to decide if I should go or not. It is not the sort of thing that I would enjoy but it would be kind of like a sign of respect for me to go.
Factors:
-I hate the smell of salmon (any type of fish really)
-I don't really enjoy spending time with people who have been drinking too much (and I assume there is a open bar at the event)
-I have concerns about fireworks and the environment
k, I don't have any good factors, but it might be fun.
What a week
This was a week full of everything that can go wrong, will go wrong.
I'll start at Thursday (which was only 3 days away but it feels like it has been ages)
On Thurs, I walked into work and my computer would not turn on. Just dead. I felt terrible. However, it was only the power supply that was broken and it was fixed after lunch. My boss was way more freaked out about it than I and was going on about how he told me so. Did he?
On Friday, all the files I loaded on for my other boss were corrupted (I was using my home computer this time) and so I had to reload them last night. And then my boss emailed me from the Amsterdam airport this morning (6am) to say it still wasn't working.
On Friday, my first boss kept calling me and freaking out about the computer, telling me it was my number 1 priority to get everything transferred off. I am pretty busy with boss #2s work, so boss#1 doesn't really impact me as to what my priorities are. I just wish he would leave me alone. I'll get it all transferred over, it just takes a long time because the computer is SLOW and crashes a lot. I'll bring a book.
On Saturday, someone was upset with me because they had not been EXPLICITLY invited to James' party. I would have been happy if they had come, but I had not really thought they would be interested.
So many people upset with me!
And on Saturday, my parents came to visit, which was great, but my dad lost his glasses somewhere here in Kingston! sigh
Sometimes I wish the week would start over.
On a positive note, though, on Wed ev. some people from Rustle prayed for me for my heart racey problem. On Thurs, things still seemed bad, and at 3am Friday I was up and it was really bad. But I woke up Friday morning normal. Normal. Though in the evenings I can still feel like it is close to going off again. Both Friday and Sat during the day I was normal. Well, as normal as I can get, anyway.
Too many contracts
Yesterday, I signed my new contract for another year at RMC. I thought the number of hours was wrong when I signed it, but when I went back and checked, the contract was correct, but my hours are double what I expected. It is hard to figure out how to fit everything into my work schedule!
My parents are coming up for James' birthday on the weekend. This involves much consternation on all our parts. On my part, I have to make a meal that suits all the family members different quirks and then depending on the traffic and stuff, they may not make it in time for dinner anyway. My mother was worried. No problem I told her, if you don't eat the dinner I'll just put it in the fridge. I hope the weekend is fun and not too stressful on all parts.
My computer was corrupting files. I'm not sure why it decided to save my files for my work computer as blank since Friday. I managed to find a new way to save them, but I have now been referred to as 'Source of Corruption'.
I am going shopping with Kim tomorrow and need a list. I also need some inspiration.
