Meercat
Isn't this video too cute?I have still been thinking about Lent. I could do something sacrificial, but I don't think that's what God wants from me right now. I think what He wants from me is something that will require obedience and repentance. I'm pretty sure I can't do it. At Church today I prayed that God would help me be able to do this. Interestingly, because of the set-up of the Church today (all facing toward the center) when I did this John P. came over and asked if I was ok because it looked like I was going to cry. I am ok. I did cry. I was on the edge of crying most of the day. The last few years have been difficult and I think I am at the end of myself. Every day now I have been telling God that I don't think I can cope, that He has to get me through. And He does.
The second half of this
Clint got me started thinking about and I noticed that when
Jo wrote about Lent she touched on this too- taking something out means you need to put something in.
When John and I talked he said that Caleb had been pushing girls at school. And we talked about how he needs a vocabulary to deal with his feelings. To be able to tell the girls he likes them instead of pushing them!
So now I am pretty clear on what I need to give up- I have to figure out what to put in its place.
Reptillian
I normally don't do much for Lent, but this year I would like to.
I've never really considered the giving up food because there is so little that I am able to eat to start with.
I was looking at
this prayer guide (pdf) for ideas.
Buying clothing doesn't really work to give up because I find it pretty hard to find things to fit me.
TV also is not a big one- we have now lost the CBS station, so all I have to watch that is left is Judge Judy and the Bachelor(and the Bachelor ends in 2 weeks, thankfully!)
The Internet IS a big one! I like my facebook and blogging and reading others blogs!
I had to laugh at their last one- time- fast from indulging yourself time-wise. Other than with the internet, I don't think there is anything I indulge myself with time-wise. My life feels rather sacrificial on the whole!
We got a flyer for kingston ball hockey. This seemed like something up James' alley so I looked it up online to find out when it was. For James' age group it is Monday nights. James already has gym on Monday nights, so I was going to drop it. But Myron was wanting him to do it because it will be better for his hockey skills. Um, yes, but he's 6! Either activity I think would be equally beneficial and we already committed to the gym. So I have emailed the ball hockey people to find out if there really is a conflict in the times (not sure when on Monday night the games are). So it is possible that he could do both on Mon. night. Or we could try to get the gym switched to thurs and then he would have gym and pioneers on the same night. Are we over scheduling him?
Super chameleon
I have a friend at work that I consider a super chameleon. If you have a conversation with him, you will find that as it goes on he is repeating back to you things that you said. Which at first can strike you as surprising. Didn't I just say that? Is he agreeing with me? I think he has learned the 'reflection' listening technique and is very good at using it! At first I was a bit startled by it, but then I realized that it meant that he was at least listening to what I had to say! He tries to avoid any controversial subjects. At least, he'll never pick one! Though if I pick mention a topic that he has strong feelings about, he certainly doesn't hold back (it breaks the chameleon mode). So when I do talk to him, I tend to pick difficult subjects, just so I know I'm getting the 'real' person. But who is to say the chameleon bit isn't his real person as well? He isn't a Christian, but I think God has gifted him with insights as to how people work. Or at least, he has a gift (maybe self-developed) for listening!
Chopping heads off snakes
Sometimes, when I think I've dealt with something (chopped the head of the snake off, so to speak) another thing that looks slightly different, but may really be the same crops up (a snake with a new head) and I have to go through the whole process again!
breathless
Last night, it felt like a heaviness was on me. I had trouble breathing. I didn't know what it was or what it's source was - physical or spiritual. Could it be a cold coming on? could it be stress? Heart problems also can leave you breathless. (though they tested my heart in 2007 and they couldn't find anything wrong then) When I woke up in the morning, it was still the same. It wasn't until Shari sang her song today that I felt it lift at all. It's still there now, but only mildly.
Thanks be to God, who pushes back the darkness.
Circular
I had an awfully nice chat with Sarah today. I dropped off some diapers and only meant to stay a few minutes, but I got to tour their new SUPER NICE rooms. Tigerlilly's room is super cosy. We talked a bit about her sister and how her brain's condition doesn't really allow her to learn from her mistakes. I'm not sure I'm any better and my brain is technically fully functional. I read my past posts and think- I could write that post again today!
